Sick little boy, Sad Mommy

Once again, Tanner has gone and gotten himself sick. And when Tanner gets sick, he doesn't just get a little sick, he gets really sick. In December, after his 6 month check-up, he got really sick. His fever spiked at over 102 degrees, he was congested, and just miserable. After having blood drawn to see what was going on in his little body, they gave him a shot of a powerful antibiotic that doctors normally give to adults. Then, a few days after that, he was sick again and it was back to the doctor for more antibiotics. This time just the liquid kind.

Then in March, he was his sickest. Again, after his 9 month check-up, I got a call at work saying that Tanner had a temperature - this was on a Monday. For the next five days his fever would spike, the highest being 105.7!!! Scared the living daylights out of me. So once again, back to the doctor, bloodwork done, urine collected, and nothing showed up but a high white blood count. So this time he got two hefty shots of the same antibiotics that doctors normally give to adults.

So I take Tanner to his 12 month check-up. Low and behold, he gets sick AGAIN!!! This time with a low-grade fever and an ear infection. 10 days of antibiotics did the trick. At least I thought. 5 days after his last dose of medicine, the fever is back. This time it's worse. But we just let things play out how they would being that it was the weekend. I figured his fever would go away and everything would be good. How wrong was I. I had to take him back to the doctor today. They took his temperature and sure enough, it's over 105 degrees again! His ear infection is back in the same ear and it's back on antibiotics for 10 more days. Holy cow!!

As a mom, I worry every time he gets even a small fever, because I'm always afraid that one day it will spike to over his highest temp of 105.7. I can't sleep at night because I'm afraid that I'm going to wake up to find something I don't want to wake up to. Thank goodness for prayers. I love my little boy so much, and to see him suffering just about kills me. I wish so much that I could just take his place and let me deal with the high fevers and the infections and what not. My heart breaks when all he wants to do is lay on my chest with his blanket in hand and thumb in his mouth, because I know that that's not Tanner. He's my happy-go-lucky little boy who wants to do everything himself and do it full steam ahead.

Tanner, I love you so much, bud. I want you to get better so that we can play again. Sleep well tonight! I pray for you every moment I have so that you will get better quick! I love you!