Hurry Up Already!

ALL HEAR THIS!!!! I have had it!! I am so sick of being pregnant and I'm not anywhere close, at least I feel like it, to having this baby. He is supposed to come on December 14th, but I'm betting he'll come a week later.

I'm exhausted, I hurt EVERYWHERE!! I'm tired of sleeping on my couch because my bed feels as hard as a rock. I'm tired of having a gigantic belly that doesn't allow me to breathe properly or do anything properly. I'm sick of it! My nerves are so short that I'm snappy with my kids and husband. That I feel bad for, but don't tick me off already! I'm tired of having the pregnancy waddle. Just hurry up and get here already. And watching A Baby Story isn't helping me at all!

Growing Up

My little baby is getting so big lately!! We finally put Tanner into a toddler bed this week. We needed the crib for the new baby coming, and we wanted to get Tanner used to a big boy bed before then. We ordered a cute bed and got it put together Monday night.

I thought for sure we would have issues with him adjusting. So far, the issues have been very minor. Monday night he was a little confused, but after getting his milk, he laid right down and fell asleep. He slept really well all night. I figured he'd at least fall out of bed a few times that first night, but he didn't.

Then I thought that he would get up early the next morning and make a bunch of noise to wake Spencer up before I could get Tanner out of the room. But nope, he just laid in his bed until I came in to get him out of his room (we have those special door handles where he can't open the door on the inside of his room so he can't get out). Then I thought that nap-time would be rough, thinking that he'd just run around and not fall asleep since he's no longer corralled by his crib. But I was wrong again. He laid right down and fell asleep. He didn't sleep quite as long as I was hoping he would, but I'm sure that will come in time.

Last night was a bit of a rough one. Tanner has been having these night terrors about once a month, and last night was one of those nights. He went to sleep okay. But I heard him screaming and crying about 9:25pm. When he goes through these terror things, he's still asleep, but he's crying and screaming and it's difficult to wake him. Well, after about 10 minutes we finally were able to get him awake and aware of what was going on. He laid back down and fell back to sleep. Then about 3:30am, I heard a big crash and then Tanner start to cry. I went into his room to find that he had fallen out of his bed. I was waiting for him to do this, so it wasn't such a huge surprise. I got him back in bed and tucked back in and he went right back to sleep. He's such a trooper!

It's bittersweet to see my little boy sleeping in a big boy bed. He looks so much older than he is. He's really growing up. I wish I had a picture, but I'll have to get one or two tonight. I love my baby boy!

Busy Times

Well, thankfully Halloween is over. Now it's Thanksgiving then baby!! I've about had it with this pregnancy. I hurt everywhere. I'm not sleeping very good at night. Except, thankfully the last few nights have been good nights. I'm tired of sleeping on the couch because that's the only place that is comfortable. The boys are getting more and more active and I feel bad that I don't take them outside on nice days, but I don't have any energy to chase after them. So Nick takes them out some days. I've been having non-productive contractions on and off during the day for about 10 days now. I just wish they would hurry up and become productive. I'm ready for this baby to come now! As you can see from the picture, you are probably saying, "6 more weeks. Are you kidding?! How big can one person get?!"

Halloween was a fun time. We went up to Nick's family's ward to attend their Trunk-or-Treat on Friday night. We had chili and cornbread and a bunch of other things. The boys got to go around to everyone's car trunks to get some candy. They had a good time. It was a little cool, but the boy's costumes were a little heavier so they didn't get cold at all. On Halloween we attended our own ward's Trunk-or-Treat. We had chili and cornbread. It was a little windy that night, but the boys had tons of fun there as well. There weren't so many people this night, so Tanner and Spencer got to run around a lot more because I wasn't worried about the cars.

We spent Sunday with Nick's family at church because his youngest sibling was being baptized that day. We made arrangements with people in our own ward to take care of our responsibilities and we headed up to Dover to spend the day with family. It was a nice, long day. The boys did extremely well considering they didn't get a nap.

Our 5 year anniversary is tomorrow. Nick is leaving early from work to come pick me and the boys up. We're dropping the boys off at his mom and dad's and then we're going to go see an early movie. Dinner at the Olive Garden afterwards. I'm looking forward to getting out without the kids. It's been too long for us since we've actually gone out on a date. We sorely need it. I can't believe some days that I've been married for five years. Others it feels like so much longer. I love Nick so much and he's done so much for me and our family. He works so hard so that we can have the things we both want and need. He's a great provider, husband, father, friend and I love him so much everyday for that. I'm truly blessed to have found him when I did. It hasn't been the easiest 5 years, but the good out weighs the bad by a huge margin. Nick, I love you so much!

Sick and Tired

Nick and I no longer have internet at our house, so it gets to be a while between visits to my parents to use their internet. So don't feel like I've just abandoned my blogging efforts. It just takes me a lot longer to get around to doing things these days.

The past two weeks have been rather exhausting for us. Nick ended up getting the flu all last week. I think I got a little bit of that myself. Nick had chills and body aches and the such where as I had extreme hot flashes where I couldn't cool off and I was tired all the time. This is more than just what I feel from my pregnancy. Then Nick developed a cough toward the end of last week. My cough came a few days later. Nick's turned into pneumonia and he's been on antibiotics and strong cough syrup for the past few days. I'm pretty sure I got bronchitis but I haven't gone to the doctor to get it checked out. There isn't much you can do for bronchitis. I've been watching myself carefully to make sure that things don't progress and get worse. The last thing I need is pneumonia while pregnant. But we seem to be on the mend. We finally got out of the house today to do a few things. I'm tired, but hanging in there. Both our coughs are subsiding, thank goodness. Thankfully the boys have not shown any signs of being sick. It's been bad enough taking care of my sick husband, two crazy boys, being sick myself, and being pregnant on top of all of that. I'm exhausted. I need a vacation!

Update

Things are going well for the Surdukowski's. Busy, but well.

We cancelled our internet and cable service a little while ago, so we haven't had continuous access to the internet like we would like to. When we got internet and cable when we moved into our current place, we did a 6-month deal for $50 a month. After the 6 months were over, it literally doubled to $107. We were a little peeved that we couldn't find any good deals now that didn't require a year contract. If we weren't going to be moving in with the parents again in March, we would have made a few deals. As it is, we occassionally make it to my parents for a quick check of things and then back to the nothingness of our townhome. Oh well, we can live without it for about 4 months.

Nick had a tooth removed the other day. He actually was put under to have it removed. That has to have been the funniest thing I've ever experienced in out marriage yet! The proceedure only took about 20 minutes. They wheeled him out to the car afterwards and managed to get him in without too many troubles. He kept telling the nurses how great they where and what a wonderful job they did. He told me about 3 or 4 times how much he loved me and appreciated me. You have to remember that he is doped up and with gauze in his mouth, he sounds like a drunk guy. So funny! He repeated a few more things numerous times. He would just start laughing for no reason for about 3 minutes straight. All I could do was laugh at him. Trying to get him inside was a joke too! I had my mom come out and help him up the stairs to his bed. I didn't want him falling on my in present state - 6 1/2 months pregnant. As soon as we got inside he went straight for the kitchen saying, "I'm hungry". We had to corral him up the stairs so that he wouldn't just go get in the refrigerator. Once we got him on the stairs he realized he didn't want to take his lunch pail upstairs and he tried turn around and take it back down. We finally got him to lay down and he ended up falling asleep. Like I said, I've never laughed so much at him. It was so funny!

My pregnancy is going well. I don't have any problems with my blood pressure. My sugar test came back normal. The baby is progressing well. I feel like garbage most of the time, so things must be going well. I'm having trouble sleeping. I hurt everywhere from the waist down. I'm completely exhausted by day's end. We finally have a first name pinned down. His first name is going to be Bennett. We're still trying to think of a middle name. But we'll have one by the time he gets here in December.

I have a brand new nephew. Kevin and Patty welcomed their baby yesterday at 2:07pm. Anthony Caleb was 7 lbs 1 oz and measured 21 inches long. He's doing well. He had some air trapped in his lungs so they kept him in the NICU overnight but he's doing well. Patty is doing pretty well. Kevin, I think, is overcoming the shock of everything. I saw pictures that my mom took and he's a cutie pie!!

That's us for now. Not too excited, but enough to keep us busy.

Decisions Made

After what was probably the hardest month of my marriage we've been through yet, we've made it through with a few bumps and bruises, but stronger all the same.

I finally broke down and told Nick exactly what I was feeling about him doing this program. After hysterical tears and a few hugs later, I was certain that Nick wasn't going to do the program. At least that's what it seemed like. After some miscommunication, or rather, misleading, Nick tells me that he's doing the program with or without my support, and that it's going to be the best thing for us. Okay, so after more hysterical crying and drama (darn this pregnancy hormone stuff!), I finally accept what he's decided.

I've known about all the benefits that will come from this program. I want all of those benefits, but I have a hard time seeing the end result because I'm still a little focused on the getting-to-that part. The 6 months of him not working. Six months of him being gone. And so forth. But I know it'll be the best thing for us.

So here we are. In six months we will put all of our things in storage, move in with my mom and dad for those months Nick's in school. Nick will quit his job just before starting this program on March 15. He'll finish up the end of August. Hopefully find a job shortly after because we only have enough money for 8 months of him not having a job. So, this will require a lot of prayer from our part. A lot more faith on my part. And hard work from Nick. I'm still not thrilled to be doing this, but I know that it will work out. I just wish I knew where we were going to be next Christmas, but time will tell.

Lock Out

Nick hands me all the sets of car keys to which I put them on the back of the couch and takes the boys outside while he's working on the truck. I decided it was time to make dinner. I had just put some blueberry muffins in the oven to go with our dinner -- we had breakfast -- and went out on the front step to see how things were going.

Tanner decides he wants to go inside to get his drink. He shuts the door behind him like a good little boy and I proceed to check out what Nick's doing. After a few minutes, I realized that I needed to check on the muffins. To my detriment, Tanner had managed to lock the door. And the keys were inside the house. So I'm trying to get Tanner to unlock the door so that we can come in. He's crying because he just wants to come outside.

Nick won't do anything but continue to work on the car. I yelled at him for a little while to do something while I tried to get Tanner to unlock the door. Of course Nick wouldn't do anything. He wanted to call the landlord to get a key, but he wouldn't call them. I was so mad at this point! Finally, after a constant stream of "DO SOMETHING!" he finally called the property manager. So mad at him for that! Of course the property manager didn't answer. His wife answered at home and Nick explained what was going on but she wasn't sure if she could get in touch with her husband. At this point, I called my dad to come down with the spare key that they have, but it's a 20 minute drive down here. Remember, 2-year-old locked inside and muffins in the oven! After hanging up with my dad, the property manager's wife showed up with a key. Tanner, all sweaty from crying so much walked right out like nothing happened. The muffins were a little burned, but all was safe.

Lesson: Always keep a house key with you when you are outside, even if you think you don't need it!