Can't Sleep

So I've been here at my parents' house all by myself with the kids, and of course my parents and gramma, since Sunday evening when Nick left to go up to his "other house". I thought that I would get some good sleep because Nick wasn't here to wake me up when he rolls over next to me or wake me up when he gets up in the morning. I thought, "I have the whole bed to myself, I'm going to be able to stretch out and get some awesome sleep." But, here it is, the fourth night since he's been gone, and I've yet to get a good night's sleep.

First of all, I can't fall asleep to begin with. Then when I do fall asleep, I'm waking up every hour or two and can't fall back asleep. Then I'm up around 6am to feed Bennett and can't get back to sleep after he's done.

I miss having him here with me during the night. I miss the warmth of having him next to me. He doesn't get that just having him here is all I need. The hugs and kisses are a nice extra, but having him here is what I need. I just miss him.