Being Rational Sometimes Stinks!!

While we were in Colorado, I fell in love with my brother's Suburban.  I've always wanted one, but we just couldn't justify getting one when we were in the market for a bigger vehicle.  But now I really want one, even though I know it's not a smart move to get one.  I also fell in love with the mattress that my brother has.  It's one of those memory foam technology beds.  I told Nick that I would love to get a bigger bed when we move into a place of our own.  But more than that, ever since I was 5 months pregnant with Bennett I haven't been able to sleep comfortably on our mattress and it's been almost a year.  It just isn't as soft as it was when we first got it 6 years ago. 

But through it all, the rational side of me kicks in and I just can't justify buying anything new when we have things that still work and are fairly nice.  I see what everyone else has, and you know, the grass does look greener on the other side.  That saying, "It's not having what you want, but wanting what you have" has been repeating in my mind a lot lately, and I guess I just need to find out how to again want the things that I already have.  I hate being responsible sometimes.  It really stinks!!!  Just once I want to be irresponsible with my money and not have to think about the "long-term" consequences!  I guess there's always my dreams...